It could be a stolen glance across a room, an overwhelming realisation, or just a nagging feeling as you are sitting in the solitude of your own space. Suddenly something is different, and the words shared between two people become more than just a conversation, more than just an exchange of ideas and thoughts. They become a multitude of emotions, energies and possibilities. And when you find yourself continuously restless, and tossing about in your sleep, waking up in the middle of the night, wondering whether you have become an insomniac, thats when it hits you. The awareness of someone else in a way that you had never imagined before, in other words the reality of having made a deep and tangible connection with another human being, dawns on you. And you are left speechless.
This is usually how it happens. And when it does, it can be quite a frightening experience, especially when it creeps up on you without any warning. Here you are getting along merrily with your life, when the planets conspire against you and throw you into a whirlwind. A storm of sorts that begins to aquire a life of its own, whipping up a frenzy of confusion, uncertainty and disbelief. How could this happen, you ask, why did this happen ? And there are no answers, simply the reality of your raging emotions, and a million questions that pound against the insides of your brain.
But perhaps this is what is meant to happen when there is a connection with someone, when you least expect it, when your world is turned upside down and you don’t know why. And maybe its not even supposed to make any sense. What matters is that you are able to feel, and in feeling you know that you are still very much alive.